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Sometimes there are things about us, or things we’ve done that we couldn’t bear the thought of others knowing. We are afraid of what they would find if it were possible to peel back the layers of our skin and see our hearts.

But inside we know the truth.

And so we carry weight we were never meant to carry, alone. We secretly live believing that we owe debts to others that we are sure we could never pay.

We find it hard to trust others.

Because we are not trustworthy.

We find it hard to see the good in others

Because deep inside we know one thing for sure

We are not good

We were created to deeply love with abandon and be intimately known and we sense it, and even crave it

but instead we build walls, just to be certain life-giving relationships never really turn into much.

And if someone gets too close to really knowing us, we run

In fear they might find out who we really are…..

or worst, what we’ve done.

And we’ll be judged. Or even more painful – rejected and abandoned

We carry around secrets, believing hiding is safer for ourselves… and those we love.

Shame surrounds us like chains, choking out life and everything that is good.

Guilt holds us in it’s grip and relentlessly whispers into our ear  reminding us of everything we’ve done (or have failed to do), everything we’ve been (or have failed to be).

But nothing breaks the power of guilt like confession.

Confession feels just like walking up to a bell boy and dropping a million pounds of luggage after dragging it for miles and screaming, “I. CAN’T. CARRY. THIS. ANYMORE!”

And sometimes it’s as easy as finding a safe place in a true friend to just get honest about our dirt.

Sometimes it’s as simple as letting that “bell boy” be Jesus.

I don’t know what confession may look like for you. But one thing I do know, secrets eat away at the inside of us like a cancer; slowly killing the person we were originally intended to be.

There is untold freedom to be found in coming clean. Unimaginable healing in letting ourselves be known.

Exposing the truth of who we are kills the power of the lies we’ve been living.

Confession breaks the chains that bind us and removes the vail of shame from our life.

Letting go of the image we have created for others to see to hide who we really are inside is painful and humbling…..but mostly it’s liberating. 

And sometimes it starts with a few simple, boldly honest words

“I confess.”

And I don’t want to hide anymore.

So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. {Hebrews 4:16}